My husband is quite a worrier, so when I came across this passage in Dean Koontz’s Odd Apocalypse, I had to jot it down to read to him later.
The scene: These are Odd’s thoughts as he is hiding in a storage bin in a stable, trying to suppress a sneeze and hoping not to be discovered by the yet-unknown menacing creatures.
Without faith to act as a governor, the human mind is a runaway worry generator, a dynamo of negative expectations. And because your life is yours to shape as you wish with free will, if you entertain too much anxiety about too many things, if you place no trust in providence, what you fear will more often come to pass. We make so many of our own troubles, from mere mishaps to disasters, by dwelling on the possibility of them until the possible becomes inevitable.
…hope and trust will more reliably keep a man afloat, while fear is more likely to sink him.
As for myself, I don’t worry like this. Rather the opposite; I map out elaborate scenarios and build things up in my mind so much that reality never quite lives up to the fantasy I create.
This morning I was thinking that the worrier mentality would be preferable. At least when things turn out better than what you worried about, you can relax and be relieved. I end up being disappointed often in life because things usually don’t turn out as grand as I have imagined them.
Fortunately, both of us do have our lives grounded in faith, so our worries and imaginings don’t get too carried away in fear.
What about you? Are you a worrier, a fantasizer, or something else?